Contradictory hints

Once again on travel. I only had a short night sleep before my plane left. I would be the whole day on travel, several planes, several airports.

At each stop, I used my laptop to access my email. No reply from her. I really must have pissed her off with my last email, too intrusive, too long, too overwhelming.

I have to wait – cannot send any more emails before she has replied to the previous ones – would make me look like an obnoxious idiot. But I am determined that when she replies, I will continue. This time I will not make the same mistake that I did 5 years ago, when I hesitated and left many good opportunities past, only to look like a looser later when I tried to catch up. This time I will not loose any time, any opportunity. If there is an opportunity.

There is unexpected support: an old flame of my youth has contacted me by email, now with relationship problems of her own. We are actually quite close to each other, have been good friends since a while. I give her some insight into the male perspective of relationships (with the disclaimer that I may not be the typical average, and may be a bit weird in these matters), and she would give me some insight into the female aspects. Now with such a support, I cannot go wrong.

It is during these flight breaks that I decide to keep this story in this blog, and make it public as it develops. So from now on the updates will be closer to live. I am curious myself how this is going to develop.

Finally, just before my last flight leg – it is already evening – a reply from her. She apologizes (this is good – that means she feels somewhat guilty), and I get into an ecstatic mood! This is great, so I did not screw up with my last email! A next level of communication has been reached. There must be a theory of those levels – one cannot just jump over the levels, but must slowly move from one to another. That creates a solid basis for the relationship. Well, a theory would be nice, but one just feels that with common sense: one cannot be too intrusive, too pushy, to open – that will repel the other side.

I send her a description of my travel, although there was nothing really interesting yet. In her last email, she mentioned “no man around” when it was about some troubles with her car. But she also mentioned “we” as she discussed some earlier issues, implying that she and her boyfriend were involved in it jointly.

So I am confused: is the bf there only for doing some chores? Or is it serious? It would be inappropriate to ask this now, so I just have to continue on the current level.