A shocking revelation

After that hopeful mode of the past few days, in which we seemed to get closer, again today a bummer. She had mentioned that there had been so much commotion in her personal life lately... of course I related that to our "story", but I wanted to hear from her more details. Maybe she had some discussions with her boyfriend, maybe she was working towards a solution. I was just curious. Then her reply came, explaining this commotion, that they had bought a house together, and had to buy furniture.

When I read this, again a world broke down for me. This was what she has been busy with all these weeks? Why did she not tell me? I thought she lived in an apartment? I thought she does not like houses? I did not think that their relation was already so close that they bought property together...

What seemed to have been possible just a moment ago, a breakthrough in our relationship, now again seemed to move far away.

And I am devastated. Sit in my office, a blank stare to the computer screen. I do not even know how to reply to this. I need to meet with her. Hear from her the whole story of what is going on. I feel like I know nothing, and am just making a big fool of myself here in these emails with her.