"Working on it?"

During the day, we exchange more emails, on theoretical subjects, art, culture. Her replies are very interesting, so deep as I have never seen it from anybody else. She has an elegant way of formulating her opinion, and I am shaken. Yes, there is a good reason why I am in love with this woman.

Later, as I am at home, another email from her.
Earlier, she had mentioned that she is “working on it”, meaning working towards that we could finally meet sometime. So I was curious how she would be working on it.

Well, here is her reply: she just avoids mentioning my name when he is around. Hoping that he eventually would forget about it, or eventually be ok with her meeting with male friends.

This reply made again my world fall apart. So that is how she is working on it, by not working on it???
I simply cannot reply to her email. Decide to think it over. Draft for the 3rd time a flaming mail reply, citing her immaturity, her egoism, she wants it all, but is not willing to give anything.

I realize now that there is no hope in the short term. She is fixed up with him for good. And I am the fool who makes his funny attempts.

This is the end – again?