Getting desperate

It is Monday morning, and I still have not gotten any news from her. Does it happen that mobile phones just break sometimes? Is quite unlikely. She must have gotten one of my emails / SMS, and that was just too much for her.

Or she is so busy keeping her boyfriend happy, no time to think about me. That really makes me mad, and I want to withdraw all together from this relationship.

But there is this strong feeling for her, and actually, I do not believe that her boyfriend means anything to her. That is not logical, looking at the facts, but that is the impression I get when I communicate with her. I do not know why this is, but very deep inside me I know that it will end well. Despite the rollercoaster that I seem to go through right now, I have some deep hope, and that is why I continue to pursue contact with her. There is the overwhelming feeling that she is THE ONE for whom I have waited (well, I have actually not waited) all my life. She surpasses all relationships that I had with any other woman. It would be the greatest thing on earth to be with her, we would be the couple of this century. We would write books together, travel everywhere, develop technology and science, and love each other crazy. I cannot stop thinking about her. I know that it will end well. Although the facts seem to indicate otherwise.

I again did not sleep well this night. Woke up at 3am, no SMS from her, but I just sent one. Maybe eventually she would realize that I am crazy in love with her. Well, she probably knows already, although I have not mentioned anything. All just talk around the bush, I have not yet written a clear and explicit statement. But it should be clear from all our communication, that I am in love with her. If she has any sense, she should feel that, even without me talking about it.