Back.

I am back at my living / work place. In two weeks together with my wife, I had not managed to get a conversation with her going. I tried... asking her why she thinks that we should stay together. Silence was the answer. Otherwise just acting as if nothing has happened.

I did not tell her about my ongoing "love story". Should I have? Nothing has happened there, and nothing seems ever to have a chance of happening there... so what would have been the point?

Of course, as a more or less decent person, I do have a bad conscience. If our marriage breaks, it will be because of me.

But what is actually my fault? That I fell out of love with my wife already several years ago? I told her why. I told her what I would like to see changed in her, in her behavior. No response. As if she just closes her ears to whatever I say. No, I am not happy with her. And I do not see a future with her.

But the "grand revelation" is still due to happen some time. We will have to talk seriously.