Happy New Year!

Many months have passed.
Many things have changed.
I am back together with my wife.
Following reason and responsibility.
There was silence, not only on my part here on this blog, but also in life.
I too made a decision: to move on and leave the events of 2006 behind me.

Now I am sitting here, thinking back.
In July she had told me about her decision to marry "her guy". That was the last that I heard from her for a long time. I myself had remained silent towards her, just sending a brief reply with best wishes, nothing else.

Then, after several months, after I had moved back together with my wife, I had the strength to resume my contact with her. Just a brief hello. Her email reply was very happy. "Glad that you are back.". Some infos about her impeding wedding.

I kept my reply brief too.
Since then again silence. But she sent me greetings for Christmas. I have not yet replied.

I had bought a present for her. Actually several ones, little things that hat accumulated over the year, for a lack of opportunity to give them to her. But I still have those presents - I decided not to give them to her.

It is over.
And again, it is not over. This will go on for a long time, just under a different situation. She will marry her Mr rich guy, as she had planned and wanted. I will remain silent. But I know, I feel, that she will come to me eventually. She will wake up out of her fairy tale phantasy, and finally realise how the world really goes.

This year 2006 has been quite an interesting one for me. Now the new year is coming. I have no hopes of ever getting happy. Marriage is not for getting happy. It should be, with the right person. But for me, it is not. Again, the arguments have started. My wife tries hard, I try hard too. I keep silent about things, about which I really should complain loudly. But who cares...

And so it will go on.

At least I hope to achieve something in my profession, otherwise my life would be completely wasted and worthless.

Happy New Year to all of you!