Helping Her

Again she was in trouble, and again she turned to me. An issue at her work place. She described to me the situation in an email, and I wrote back an answer with my assessment and advice.
Her replies included: "Whenever there is a difficult situation, you are always there for me." "You always know how to make me smile."
I am glad for these statements. Now again is the difficult task how to interpret them... My first instinct would be to see them as a sign of genuine attraction. But I know that this cannot be. She has made that clear very much in the past year. Well, at least I am her friend.
She mentioned briefly her impeding wedding, about how much she is involved in the preparations and what a large work load that is. I did not reply to this, made no reference at all to the wedding. I will keep it quiet.

Wishful thinking

A few weeks of silence again. She was on travel, with him. But after her return, she sent me an email. Just a friendly greeting, asking how I am.

I have a feeling that her wedding will not take place. She did not mention it. Of course, that is what I hope for. But I also do not want her to be devastated... if she wants her wedding, wants to be with him, then what can I do other than to let her have her will...

Still, I have the right to hope for what I wish.

And I feel that things are not right between her and her fiancee. Maybe it is just my own wishful thinking... but I sense that something is not ok there. Well, I will find out in the next months. The wedding date is set for sometime in spring. Still a while to go. If I get invited, I will not go. That would be too much to ask from me. No way.